2 months ago.

I'm glad I can finally come out here and say, yes, Raphael is my boyfriend and be open about it. Yesterday we came clean with everyone, really. Of course the first to know was Freda and Eugene and they're happy for us TTM (To the Max, jayni's phrase, of course) and just knowing we had their blessing was a big thing for me.

Next, we let Jo know. Together. But she knew what we were going to say before we even opened our mouths. I mean, why else would we both want to talk to her together? She gave us her blessing too, Mommy Jo (: The only people left are my parents. Its not a very good time to tell them but I so want to share this joy I've found and God has blessed me with in my life with them but I do not think they're open about it.

The said they;d give me space and not push me or force me to open up but well, that only lasted for a few weeks and then Idk where it went to. Truth to be told, I'm very disappointed. Almost to the point of regretting telling them I had feelings for Raphael a month ago. I know their concerns; but I feel they aren;t giving me space.

Anyway. I'm happy (: Insanely happy beyond anything. Now we can do couple things and not feel guilty about doing it when we weren't in a relationship. The most important thing is God, of course. I love the fact that God's in the centre of this and we both know its all planned. As I walk side by side, hand in hand with him on this new journey, I know we're not walking alone.

And how he builds me up to become a better person in Christ. His own personal journey has taken leaps and bounds in the last two months and I am truly amazed by the power of God's healing love and the blessings he has heaped out on us.

I love you, Phael.