Tomorrow's Celina's wedding. And feast day dinner. I'm currently feeling quite under the weather. My long time enemy toomuchfood is back ):

I've been feeling way too tired the past few days even though I'm on holiday. I haven't had the best nights recently, them stained with restless dreams about random moments of my day and haunted by a few moments of relief. Last night I got up at 330am, took a pee and felt wide awake and contemplated calling Freda because Jo and Ec slept over (I would have, only mum didn't let me) and I bet they were still awake. Somehow, though, I fell asleep and dreamt more restless dreams until I woke up at my usual time... 10.15am and just snoozed till about 10:30am. I've been lacking Raphael's ability to just get up and lie awake (occasionally snoozing) for hours on end, just thinking.

I miss the Koh brothers. Its been approx. a week since they left for Thailand and according to their itinerary their somewhere near Chiang Rai in Luang Prabang right now. 7 more days 'till they arrive back and then I've got a few hours with Phael before I leave for Sydney for 2 weeks.

Dwayne, Freda and me were just saying how we missed Timmy and how his lame jokes just seem to be missing. Yeah I do quite miss Timmikins, though he'd kill me for saying that. Lame jokes have been a very short supply and its not the same hanging out without Timmy's antics.

I miss Phael. Miss his laughter, his company, his teasing, his silly jokes, his listening ear, our nightly talks, our constant texting, his presence in my life. Already I've felt like everything has been a dream.

So Raphael and Timmy, come back soon, for eXcess misses, especially Amanda, Sean, Freda and Dwayne!

So under the weather. Gosh I've been eating so much and not exercising and my total lack of self-control is really biting me now and my sleep hasn't been very good lately and on top of that I miss Phael like anything. Though the past few days has been quite eventful, played LAN for the first time and killed my brother with a SNIPER and killed Chris with a pistol BUT I got knifed by Dwayne and well it was all exciting for me!
Today, preparations for feast day dinner tomorrow, hanging with the rest and tomorrow morning is Celina's wedding (FINALLY!) where I'm singing but I don't really know one song and I'm sort of singing for the Feast Day Dinner thing and Sunday, I don't know what I'm doing but I just feel like hiding away somewhere in my secret hiding place with a few people and just passing time away.

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