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2009 has seen a move on to... www.xanga.com/mandyman27
I'm leaving this here for the old archives. In the meanwhile, do check out my xanga, and relink me. Thank you very muches!

I admit that I am in love with not only Phael, but Koalas too. 

I mean, would you look at that cute face! I almost had a cuddle with it. Its just so cute. They are quiet and gentle creatures. Ah. Koalas.

So school is starting, hurrah yes or no. This Christmas period has been so rushed. I got back from Australia and now its Christmas already. It seems like it passed way fast, too fast. All I can say is that at least this Christmas was heaps better than last Christmas, with all that emotional nonsense.

Now everyone's nervously counting down the free days left till the 5th of Jan, well, all those taking O Levels next year. I just want to erase all this stress an restlessness I'm already starting to feel. 

Fels is off to America. We stayed over in the airport yesterday and I was just so tired and stoned during it. But I am gonna miss Fels, the cutest human being alive.

Watching Twilight tomorrow with Phael and Freeds and maybe Ec. Been waiting for it to come out, and no I'm not raving over Edward Cullen or Robert Pattison. I wanna see if the movie does bring alive the world that the book did. 

2 months ago.

I'm glad I can finally come out here and say, yes, Raphael is my boyfriend and be open about it. Yesterday we came clean with everyone, really. Of course the first to know was Freda and Eugene and they're happy for us TTM (To the Max, jayni's phrase, of course) and just knowing we had their blessing was a big thing for me.

Next, we let Jo know. Together. But she knew what we were going to say before we even opened our mouths. I mean, why else would we both want to talk to her together? She gave us her blessing too, Mommy Jo (: The only people left are my parents. Its not a very good time to tell them but I so want to share this joy I've found and God has blessed me with in my life with them but I do not think they're open about it.

The said they;d give me space and not push me or force me to open up but well, that only lasted for a few weeks and then Idk where it went to. Truth to be told, I'm very disappointed. Almost to the point of regretting telling them I had feelings for Raphael a month ago. I know their concerns; but I feel they aren;t giving me space.

Anyway. I'm happy (: Insanely happy beyond anything. Now we can do couple things and not feel guilty about doing it when we weren't in a relationship. The most important thing is God, of course. I love the fact that God's in the centre of this and we both know its all planned. As I walk side by side, hand in hand with him on this new journey, I know we're not walking alone.

And how he builds me up to become a better person in Christ. His own personal journey has taken leaps and bounds in the last two months and I am truly amazed by the power of God's healing love and the blessings he has heaped out on us.

I love you, Phael.

Phael

How blessed I am to walk with you in God's love. (:



This is the love that the Lord hath made
That you and I, we are one.

Why we blog?

I really have to start uploading pictures. I know words bother many people. Sometimes I just wonder why I blog. Why, do I?

Creative outlet, I wonder, or just expression of feelings or as most people look at it, someone that will listen.

Why DO people blog, then? Are we all writing our own column for people to be updated on our lives, especially for those we haven't kept in contact with?

Or maybe we just need somewhere to rant to, somewhere where we know someone will at least see and maybe sympathize with.

Or maybe we hide hidden mesages, write obscurely nonsensical philosphical lines in hope that the person who we really want to talk to will make some sense of it.

Or maybe, we just have hours to kill everyday and we just need to kill it and we hate maple story or whatever everyone is playing now.

I guess for me, its a bit of everything. Some times I churn out really blogworthy blogspots about issues that concern me. Sometimes I just rant on. Sometimes I leave hidden messages for you to read between the lines and sometimes, I just want my thoughts and words up somewhere where maybe a random person might see and connect with.

As Josh Groban sang "Everybody wants to be understood", everyonebody DOES want to be understood and heard. People have different ways of achieving that. Why don't we just talk to someone, then? Well, maybe because we want to type it. We want to play around with words and fuel our creative sides! Maybe we're so sick of being interrupted in conversations or maybe because a blog is, in a sense, free for all to see (unless its privated) and those who don't want to don't have to.

Its a way to reach out to the masses, for random blog surfers like me who just like knowing what other people around the world think about their lives in seconds.

Well. I like to blog and I'm not ashamed of it.

Whether I blog about worthwhile stuff or just boring nonsense, whatever.

Fels is moving to The US or A.

I'm gonna miss you Fels,
like anything!

Bye bye cutest human being in the world. Misses!

):

Two weeks away have become two days away, and not without their own share of struggles, either. But I guess God's really rewarded me during so I didn't go completely without for two weeks (:

So next, its onto two MORE weeks in Sydney. Hillsong with Jeremy Chua on the first night, thats gotta be awesome. It just hasn't hit me I'm realising a dream... SERVICE IN HILLSONG! I'm actually going to BE THERE. The place where it all those songs that brought me to God in the first place came from.

So, what has passed? Celina and Franklin's wedding, it was really touching, I felt just so happy for Celina and she cried when taking her wedding vows; Franklin's a good man!

Then my utter mortification during the Feast Day Dinner singing that unmentionable song!

So much has happened, so much has passed. I was watching Henry Poole Is Here, awesome movie and was inspired to churn some lyrics out. Once in a blue moon.

I found a left and made it right
I felt the feeling in the air tonight
And I know
I've got my life

I danced the morning rain upon
Your skin, your face, your voice is home
I kissed goodbye the memories of the past

We know not the pleasure
Of a lifetime spent together
But we look forward to the break of a day
The start of a journey

Given by God for a reason
I feel you words right in my blood
And I know
This is meant to be